Yes!... i'm poor. It is the first week of the month and i'm left with RM20.. oh yeah, plus RM1 which equals to RM21. i have to save the RM20 to be able to purchase my bus ticket back home after the finals.
Feels so sad!!! When i see others feast on their every meal outdoors, i'm green with envy, but i'm content of whats left in the fridge, 2 whole leg and few veges to last me till end of this month... hur hur hur i want to cry but i can't!!! i must be strong.. 3 more packets of instant noodles.
Just another to two more weeks and i'll be home. wait debbie just wait. I can't believe i'm in a state where i can't even buy a meal for myself. Well yes i do have friends to require from, but how much can you ask? i don't have YOU anymore to support me, i only have myself. Can't burden my parents anymore. I don't want my worries to be anyone else's.
Imagine i had to ask my Older brother for Rm3 just to buy a box of women's towels. But he gave me more than that. I don't even have a printer that is working!!! Every time i have to ask from others to print my Exam slip.. i can't even afford to dream of owning any thing by purchasing them.
i reconsider twice before stepping into a shop, asking my self why am i here anyway?
Is time to be smart!! And get back on my feet. Use your head girl!!! Put aside those algebra and get creative!!! (talking to myself)
Each time i remind my self to be extra careful of my belongings, making sure that they are attach to me at all times , especially in campus. i cannot afford to lose any of my valuable things. Can't stand being so practical all the time. What the heck? i came here to suffer anyway... so i rather to use the last ounce of my precious energy to study then wasting time writing this now!!!! AArgghh ... Oh dear blog i have no one else to complain to... Thank for listening to me you have been so quite all this time...love you my bloggie...
